Judy

Reply for your own questions!

2009-12-01T17:20:37Z

These questions are from Alex!

1. How did you get into improv/so good at coaching it?
I got into improv in high school, where I discovered that I hated acting because you were stuck with one line when another line felt more appropriate. I got good at coaching it through practice and a LOT of reading. I also talk to other improvers about things that work for them/their groups. I watch a lot of Who's Line to get ideas for games and scenes from a hat. And lastly it takes a lot of meanness with simultaneous kindness, which is something I am cut out for :)

2. What is your favorite spice to use in cooking and why?
I use a LOT of garlic in my cooking. Garlic cloves, garlic powder, dried minced garlic, frequently a combination thereof. I like it because, well, I love garlic, but if that doesn't count as a 'spice', I'd have to go with either paprika or basil. Paprika because I like the smokey flavor it lends to tomato dishes, and basil because it's both minty and fresh. Plus it smells delicious.

3. If you could have any one superpower, what would it be?
I would like to be able to master any talent that I chose!

4. What are your top 3 favorite video games and the reason you like them so much?
Pokemon Blue. It's one of the only games I've ever finished completely, and I've done so two or three times. I like collecting them all.
Harvest Moon 64. A classy game that lets you get a wife and a baby. Not as complicated as other harvest moons and days only take 6 minutes unlike Animal Crossing
World of Warcraft. I have put literal days and days of my time into this game and I am still not bored with it. There are a million places to explore and a ton of things to do. It is by far the best MMORPG I have ever had the pleasure to enjoy, although it does suck lives and end relationships.

5. If Pokemon were real, what would be your starter? (I'm talking red and Blue version of course)
If Pokemon were REAL I would definitely choose charmander because eventually he'd be Charizard and I could fly around on him. Plus once you get past the water gym he's really the best overall, and it's really easy to just over-level for the first two gyms.

jtotheudy @ 2009-10-16T08:40:00

2009-10-16T12:51:02Z

The Songs of Your Life - Movie Edition
1. Open your library (iTunes, winamp, media player, iPod)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing
5. New question– press the next button
6. Don’t lie and try to pretend you’re cool

Opening Credits
Cry Baby Cry - The Beatles ( This movie is starting off pretty sad)

Waking Up
Oh well, Okay - Elliot Smith (this movie is officially sad as shit)

First Day at School
Mad World - Gary Jules (WTF do I only have sad music?)

Falling in Love
Penny Lane - The Beatles (Okay, this is a little more reasonable)

Breaking Up
Beautiful Freak - The Eels (I guess I didn't really want to break up)

Prom
Never There - Cake (I seem to have been stood up)

Mental Breakdown
Fat Lip - Sum 41 (1. Yes I have this song still 2. Hahahahahaha)

Driving
You Belong to Me - Jason Wade - Shrek Soundtrack (This song will make you fall asleep at the wheel so fast)

Flashback
Three Libras - A Perfect Circle (Sure, what the hell)

Getting Back Together
Cocamo - The Beach Boys (Apparently we're getting back together abroad)

Wedding
All Star - Smash Mouth (This is unacceptable)

Birth of a Child
Pachelbel Canon - Rockapella (If this played during me having a child I would assume that the baby's daddy was at War somewhere)

Final Battle
Saint Simon - The Shins (this is more of an intellectual battle, it seems)

Death Scene
Kiss Me - Sixpence None the Richer (WTF please don't kiss my corpse)

Funeral Song
Knocking on Heaven's Door - Bob Dylan (This is the first song that makes any sense)

End Credits
A Lack of Color - Death Cab for Cutie (This is the saddest and most awful movie soundtrack ever)

Kelsey made me do it.

2009-09-07T14:56:26Z

1.This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
I already read Kelsey's, and the questions didn't seem so bad.

2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Tarr, but he's already married.

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
No. I have been sleeping poorly for the past few days, but it will be over soon. >.> <.<

4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
I just called Van, but he didn't answer, the last person I actually spoke to on the phone was the guy from China Taste/Tokyo Express ($6.30 for 16 pieces of sushi and miso soup. You can't beat it!)

7. What are you excited for?
Going to Africa in December, and Beatles Rock Band.

8. What were you doing yesterday?
Taking a Psychology exam, doing math homework, watching house with Dave and Jen.

9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you
Van. He loves me. :)

10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
The capri sun that Greg gave me before he and Van left to go sleep in a field.

11. Have a best friend?
Katie, Melly, and Alex are all up their in my friend love, but I love all of my friends a lot.

12. Are you scared to fall in love?
I'm more scared to be in love.

13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
I think they can be in what they think is love, sometimes it can later turn into real love.

14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
This guy that we all went rock climbing with. I had to go for a walk to avoid that punching situation.

15. What time is it right this second?
10:39 AM

16. What do you want right now?
A high paying, minimal hours job. :)

17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Tomas.

18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken?
Taken

19. When was the last time you cried?
Last night.

20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Yeah, we get along super well.

21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
When I meet people there is a switch in my brain that says trust this person or don't. It's about a 50/50 chance, but once I am trusting I trust completely. It gets me in trouble sometimes.

22. How fast does your mind change?
I'm not wishy-washy or flaky.

23. I bet you miss somebody right now?
Van is camping in a field, but I saw him yesterday. I miss David and Todd.

24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
No.

25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
I think there are many reasons that people have for cheating. Everything from "my penis was excited" to "our relationship was in a rut and she was there for me when you weren't".

26. Tell me what's on your mind?
I need to start my woodcut print.

27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
Nekocon, Beatles Rockband, didn't we have this question before?

28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
I'm wearing a man's shirt right now.

29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
Well Alex came over a few days ago and he's my favorite.

30. When is your next road trip?
Nekocon is coming up, that may be the next big one if I don't visit Salisbury soon.

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Van

32. How's your heart?
Emotionally it's retarded as usual, otherwise I apparently have a murmur.

33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
This is a day to day fear.

34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
I hope so. :)

35. What are you planning on doing after this?
Emailing my Psychiatrist/playing World of Warcraft.

36. Next time you will kiss someone?
When Van gets home.

37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Not yet.

38. Who do you not get along with?
A lot of women. Some men.

39. what does you 3rd recent text say?
"is improv happening now?" from Alex

40. What are you wearing right now?
My Burtonsville shirt, since I have to represent, and some trollop shorts.

41. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
It's cool. I live with him anyway. :)

42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
Gross.

43. What's your fave boy and girl name right now?
I hadn't really thought about it.

44. How did you feel when you wake up?
Wishing I was still tired enough to go back to sleep.

45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Yep. Van might come home soon.

46. Do you crack your knuckles?
All of them, even my thumbs.

47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Watching the 13th episode of the 5th season of House.

48. What are your LEGAL initials?
JAS

49. Whose the first B in your contacts?
Bekah

50. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
When Alex, Kim and I were playing Scattergories the other night and we had to pause the game because it was too inappropriate.

51. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
Uh... yes? Wtf.

52. Last awkward moment?
I thought that square hot glue existed then I found out that it set people on fire and shocked them.

53. Are you afraid of the dark?
Yep!

54. Do you have good vision?
Hahahaha. My eye doctor lost my new glasses so I have to wait another few days for them. I can't see shit.

55. Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Aw yeah.

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
Pleading the 5th.

57. Are you Irish?
Mhm, though my alcohol tolerance is surprisingly low, considering.

58. Do you use chapstick?
Only when I am chapped.

59. Do you have any scars?
Doesn't everyone?

60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
At this moment I feel like I'd never forgive a certain person, but perhaps with time that will change.

61. Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
The last person I held hands with was Alex, so no.

62. Name the last person to text you?
Alex

63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
Yeah, why not? My parents are 7 years apart.

64. Can you go in public looking like you do?
No I am gross.

65. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J?
Only in a friendly cheek type way.

66. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Mostly the left side recently. I have usurped Van's side of the bed.

67. What’s the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
Probably drink some Mimosas.

68. What’s one huge pet peeve?
When people say Electrocute when they mean Electrify.

69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
Several people in fact.

70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
Sometimes, but I couldn't have then and now together so I am torn on this question.

71. Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Yep.

72. Song you're thinking of right now?
I'm not really thinking of a song.

73. Want someone back in your life?
Not really. I'm not missing anyone too much.

74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
Probably not. Though I do have Health class with Michael Clark Duncan.

for the record:

2009-07-08T03:40:21Z

I have been battling an abscess in my tooth for some time now, and it has recently decided to get worse.

My upper jaw started hurting about a month ago, which was referred pain from an abscess in a tooth in my lower jaw. My regular dentist, who is the most awesome dentist in the world if anyone needs a referral, drilled into it to release the pressure and left a hole to allow for draining. I got some antibiotics and thought I was on my way to being pain free.

A few days later, the tooth he drilled had started really aching. It was pretty awful, but mostly just bad because I am allergic to codeine and all codone based drugs (vicodin, percocet, tylox, oxycodone) etc. These are generally prescribed for tooth pains and other minor problems that are too painful for regular tylenol/advil/naproxen. I am a tough cookie, so I just did it with advil. Needless to say I was back at the dentist and getting drilled further. There was a huge release in pressure and we assumed the abscess was on its merry way to drainage.

I had an appointment a few weeks later to get the hole filled in, to finish the root canal off, and to make all things well in my mouth, but like an idiot I missed it (I had been confused about the timing). That was June 23rd. My dentist's receptionist informed me that the next appointment was available for July 14th :( so I said I'd wait since I haven't had any pain.

This past thursday rolls around (that's the 1st of July for those who are curious about timing), and Van and I head off for camping even though my tooth has been aching just a bit. By the time we get to Eric's cabin (4 hours away) it is throbbing, but it's also 1:00 AM and we aren't about to drive back home. At 6:00 AM after 2.5 hours of sleep the pain is unbearable. Van drives me home, only to find that no dentist is open on the friday before July 4th weekend. I am sad, but more so in pain.

It has gotten so bad at this point that I am vomitting from pain so Van takes me to the hospital. They offer me no relief, saying the only medication they can offer is codeine and Ultram (a narcotic that I was heavily addicted to previously, and refused to take again). The second I mentioned a problem with drug habits the doctor stopped offering me pain killers, as if I would come in and say that I was formerly addicted so that I could get more drugs. He gave me a shot of lidocain (which did nothing for the pain) and sent me on my way.

My Mom finds a doctor who will prescribe me hydromorphone (Dilaudin) which is a morphine based narcotic. My jaw has started to swells severly at this point. Finally I get the pain killers and some relief after about an hour on them.

Monday rolls around and I go back to my dentist, he drills more to make sure the abscess is open and sends me down the hall to an oral surgeon. They tell me that my jaw is too swollen to do surgery, but they do cut a hole in my gum and insert a drain to relieve pressure, which was excruciating. The worst part was that the local anesthetic made my tongue unbelievably itchy to a point where it became painful.

Tomorrow morning I go back to get the drain removed, next Tuesday I get my root canal closed, and sometime after that I get the real surgery that will make the abscess go away forever. I have at least a week and a half of pain ahead of me, and I don't know if I can handle much more. :(

jtotheudy @ 2009-05-06T19:59:00

2009-05-07T00:02:21Z

Dear Kelsey,

My rats are huge. How did this happen? They were babies one day and now they can jump three feet into the air, out of the bucket that I used to keep them in while I was cleaning their cage. They are also much thicker feeling now. How do I tell if they are getting fat?

Boy rats have huge balls.

They also fight a lot, do I need to have their balls removed? There is no blood, just a lot of pulling each other off the walls by their tails. I do not want to remove their balls if possible.

Their cage is significantly too small these days. Do you know where I can get a quality cage for cheapies? I have tried craigslist, but people get jumpy. Also there is a rat in Salisbury on craigslist that some woman is giving away because her evil teenage daughter does not clean it or take care of it. I don't know if it's a boy or a girl or if you have time for another rat, but you are the only person I would let know about that.

My rats wont let me hold them. They run around like crazies.

Love,
Judy

Ratlings!

2009-04-17T18:00:13Z

I have adopted two very cute, very smart male rats! They are five weeks old (born on March 16th) and they are very inquisitive.

I was really nervous at first because they didn't seem to want to be held or touched, but I've read a bunch about them, and a lot of people say that the babies are just too active to want to be held.

I started training them to sit in my hands using strawberry yogurt. Oblio (the albino one) is still too nervous to want to put more than his front two feet on my hand, but Archimedes (the tan-faced cutie) will sit in my hand for about ten seconds before he decides he wants to go play with Oblio.

They are huge sweeties and haven't bitten me yet, but apparently male rats sometimes get a little angry after their first 12 - 15 weeks of life so we'll see how that goes. Hopefully with a lot of handling they'll love me and not bite my fingers off.

Look how cute they are!!

jtotheudy @ 2009-04-14T11:26:00

2009-04-14T15:26:51Z

Vote for my friend's awesome t-shirt design, so I can have it.

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jtotheudy @ 2009-02-25T23:37:00

2009-02-26T04:46:38Z

Directions: Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.

Alex gave me:

Bunnies
They are soft, cuddly, cute, and almost entirely silent pets who can be litter trained. What's not to love? I miss having bunnies in my house a ton, just like Alex's mom.

Wendly the Wingless Fly
My underground web comic that's so hip and cool and underground, its not even online yet. It stars Wendly, the innocent fly who attempts to eat some unwanted snacks when another insect approaches. His wings are tragically removed and he has to face the trials and tribulations of being a one winged fly.

Please Pick the Flowers
WHat the fuck! One time me and Alex were at my house and Alex and I were standing with my brother at like 1:00 Am because we had just gotten back from Katsucon. We were watching Dan play some video game ors omething when Alex and I simultaniously look over at the box on the shelf that says "WATERMELONS" in huge neon letters. We thought it was a board game and it was really funny. Then we looked underneath the watermelons box and there was another box that said please pick the flowers! and we thought that was a board game too so we were in hysterics. But they were both puzzles. Please pick the flower! is still really funny.

Tampons in the Freezer
One night, directly before a boys vs. girls party began, David decided to place all of my tampons in the freezer of my apartment. So I opened the freezer door and saw them and made the muppet face real bad.

Pho
Vietnamese beef noodles! It's yummy beef brother with rice noodles, green onions, regular onions, cilantro, lime, beansprouts, thai basil, and beef. You can add Hoisin sauce or Shriracha if you're feeling ambitious, and it's REALLY good for clearing the sinuses (as well as being delicious).

jtotheudy @ 2009-01-27T14:06:00

2009-01-27T19:16:49Z

Classes this semester are going to be intense.

English 102 is what it is, I am not too worried about it, except that the teacher said she rarely gives A's. I would like an A so this is a problem for me. Also, she talks really slowly so I may fall asleep a lot. Good thing Van is in this class to keep me company.

Philosophy started with a bang this semester, we walked into class and immediately started debating about who deserves money, the people that need it to live or the people who earned it. I predict that the majority of this small class (there are a total of 13 people registered but I feel like a few will drop) will end up hating each other by the end of the semester. I really enjoy arguing so I am not terribly worried.

Photography is going to be boring as fuck for about four weeks, but that's generally how it is when you're taking a refresher course. I just am not excited about re-learning how to do everything that I already know how to do. Meh. The teacher seems pretty nice though so I'll give her that.

Italian Renaissance Art History is going to be HARD AS BALLS! The teacher is crazy. She held up the book at the beginning of class and said "I hope you like reading!" We have to read the entire book this semester. It's about 20 pages two times a week (the night before we have class). In addition we have to write two journals a week, each of which must be a minimum of 200 words and has to be a researched topic that we DO NOT discuss in class, but pertains to Italian Renaissance Art, each of these must have a bibliography! There are several people in the class who opted out of Art History 1 to take this seemingly MUCH HARDER class, as part of their rotation. They will regret it. Anyone without a laptop or a tape recorder is not going to pass this class unless they take some stellar hand written notes.

I haven't had my creative writing class yet, and I am nervous. I already have a huge course load according to my syllabuses (which according to spell check is how you spell that, and not syllabi).

In addition to all this work Van, Greg, and I have to move in the next week or so because we are living in our house illegally. The owner of the house neglected to get it inspected previously to renting it out, making our lease null and void. We found this out when my Mom called the tenant landlord commission to discovered who is responsible for paying to take the POOP OUT OF OUR SHOWER. The guy on the phone says "Not us! You don't legally live there!" So blah blah we have to sue our landlord and move right quick! Anyone who wants to help will be repaid in food and lots of love!

I hope everyone else's semesters have started off more fun than mine has :)

Stolez from Alex!

2009-01-12T21:15:44Z

Write a poem by putting your itunes/mp3 player/whatever you listen to music on on shuffle and writing down the first line from the first 20 songs that pop up. Use the first line from the 21st song as a title.

My poem is depressing as fuck.

Her Majesty is a pretty nice girl

Take me down, six underground
There's a human white and blue
The scarlet letter isn't black
Oh lord, wont you buy me a Mercedes Benz

Stormin' through the party like my name was El Nino
I still don't know what I was waiting for
I am retarded, do do de doo
Oh happy day (oh happy day)

It starts with one thing
I am the God of fuck
Everybody look at me, me
Ladies up in here tonight

I drink good coffee every morning.
When I find myself in trouble
I was the best man in a size too small
Go on and close the curtains

She doesn't own a dress
We're racing through the dark
I thought love was only true in fairy tales
It's times like these when a neck looks for a knife

1. Sneaker Pimps - Six Underground
2. State Radio - Democracy in Kind
3. Feist - Past in Present
4. Janis Joplin - Mercedes Benz
5. Sum 41 - Fat Lip
6. David Bowie - Changes
7. Unknown Artist - I Be An Retarded
8. Sister Act 2 - Oh Happy Day
9. Linkin Park - In the End
10. Marilyn Manson - Cake and Sodomy
11. Nelly Furtado - Maneater
12. Shakira - Hips don't lie
13. Colin Hay - I just don't think I'll ever get over you
14. The Beatles - Let It Be
15. Sufjan Stevens - Size too small
16. Eagle Eye Cherry - Save Tonight
17. Train - Meet Virginia
18. Minus the Bear - Hey is that a Ninja up there?
19. The Monkees - I'm A Believer
20. Ted Leo and the Pharmacists - Where have all the rude boys gone?
21. The Beatles - Her Majesty

jtotheudy @ 2009-01-03T14:43:00

2009-01-03T19:45:19Z

New years, huh.

Katie, Alex, and I share a resolution this year. We will be referring to David by his real name (rather than Skippy or Prego).

I also share another resolution with Alex and that's to work on my comic. Wendly will reign supreme this year.

I don't usually like to make these resolutions, but I want this year to be better than 2008 which was generally sort of crappy.

jtotheudy @ 2008-12-29T12:01:00

2008-12-29T17:06:36Z

So it seems the poop shower has been vanquished. Roto rooter was called twice and nothing seems to be backing up now. Hooray!

The house is finally starting to seem like a house rather than a problem. The only major problem we have left is that the water heater needs to be replaced, which is a big deal but we don't have to pay for it.

Living with Van and Greg is pretty cool. Greg sort of rules the basement and Van and I have the upstairs. It's like having two adjoined apartments. It's kinda neat to be able to hear Greg playing (Jen's) guitar while I'm in the kitchen making dinner or whatever. Oh, and since Van usually eats with me and therefore has his own food to be eating, it's nice to have Greg to eat my leftovers. :)

My back is still awfully fucked up, but hopefully will never require surgery again. The arthritis in my hips has gotten significantly better since I started taking the celebrex. Blah blah. Medical problems.

Now all I have left to do is clean in between back spasms.
But when everything is clean I will be SO happy!

jtotheudy @ 2008-12-18T01:40:00

2008-12-18T06:49:55Z

THERE IS POOP EVERYWHERE!

We thought the house couldn't get much worse as far as 'hidden' problems go. The doors pretty much all either stick, don't close all the way, close and then wont re-open, don't lock or DO lock, but the lock never catches so you can just push the door open.

The upstairs and downstairs showers both leak to the point where the plumbing needs to be gutted and replaced, the downstairs toilet needs a new system in it's tank.

Greg's bedroom doesn't have any form of heat duct and since his box spring doesn't fit downstairs he has to sleep closer to the ground making it even more cold.

The air conditioning unit is entirely broken, however, they plan to fix that before the summer starts.

The weather stripping on the front and back doors is completely destroyed. It's like having a closet door as our only protection to the wind.

The front and back porch lights are both broken. The front just needs a new fixture, the back needs electrical re-wiring. There are also a few outlets that need re-wiring.

BUT
That wasn't good enough.
Our house has a mind of it's own and it is PISSED.

At the Christmas party Alex pointed out that there is shit in the shower. We thought that it would be impossible for someone to have gotten drunk enough to projectile diarrhea all over our shower without us noticing so we called shenanigans and decided that Tom the wonderful plumber (who had been there earlier to look at the plumbing) had tramped dirt into the shower.

It turns out that Alex was right.
Everything flushed down the toilet downstairs ends up regurgitated into the shower downstairs, which means our shower was literally full of shit.

It wasn't that horrible.. it didn't smell and we had a plan to fix it involving the help of our landlord and some plumbing service or something.

Then today I decided to take a shower upstairs.
Greg, who was downstairs, heard something in the bathroom and watched my used shower water flood out of the downstairs shower into the bathroom (There is about 2 inches of lip that the water had to climb over to get onto the actual floor). Fortunately the tiny flood was contained by the three inch downward slant that our unlevel bathroom has.

Roto rooter comes tomorrow to decalcify our pipes.

Poop is everywhere.

jtotheudy @ 2008-10-27T05:26:00

2008-10-27T09:47:32Z

My body is tired of being sick. Mostly I'm tired of my body being sick.

As if having bi-polar disorder wasn't bad enough I have two chronic illnesses as well as a slew of medical problems that come and go.

My back is definitely the most obnoxious. I cannot sleep through most nights without the aid of a pillow under the backs of my knees and a fairly firm mattress. Sometimes when I wake up I cannot get out of bed for long periods of time, so I have to set my alarm early. I cannot walk upstairs carrying anything that weighs over 10 pounds, easily. If I want to do something physical like rock-climb, I have to prepare myself mentally to be in huge pain for the next few days. I never thought that I would have to endure pain to have fun.

The disks in my lower back are dehydrated. L3 - L4 and L4 - L5 are pretty doomed. L5 - S1 has already been removed. I can hardly even entertain the idea of surgery again. It was horrific. I lay in a state of half awake/half asleep for fifteen straight hours in the hospital, alone, after my surgery. I had a pain medication pump that was monitored so I could release medication every 7 minutes. If I fell asleep I would wake up 10 minutes later because I hadn't pressed my button. I am allergic to narcotic pain killers, everything except valium, which isn't a pain killer it's a muscle relaxant.

This pain alone makes me miserable twenty-four/seven.

Fortunately I have other things to distract me. Like my endometriosis. I always had really heavy periods and bad cramps and never knew that it was likely caused by endometriosis (which affects some ridiculous percent of women). I had to have my uterus surgically examined, and spots of endometriosis burnt off. The long term treatment for endometriosis (at least the only one that doesn't DEFINITELY cause you to not be able to have children) is taking a birth control pill every day for a year. That means no periods for a year (which is awesome).

Unfortunately the more birth control you put in your body the less your body wants to have sex. My libido is depressed, just like me. Oh, and taking the extra hormone makes me a hambeast.

And if physically I wasn't fucked up enough I'll always have my bi-polar to remind me that I cannot be normal.

There are two types of medication for bi-polar, one set makes you gain anywhere between 5 and 25 pounds. I am already a hambeast without that, thank you. The other type can actually cause you to LOSE weight (bonus!) but makes birth control work roughly 70% of the time, making the treatment for my endometriosis basically useless all together. Oh, and most of those weight lowering bi-polar treatments are also seizure treatments, so one of the side effects is seizures.

I want to be able to have fun again. I want to be able to play frisbee, go sledding, hell I want to walk up stairs pain free. I just don't know if I could stand having surgery. I am terrified that another disk will just rupture, anyway. It would be nice to feel like I'm pretty, but without bi-polar treatment, and with the treatment for my endometriosis causing me to gain weight, it's hard to feel beautiful.

Thank God for Van's encouragement and support, but it's hard for me to see that my boyfriend sometimes holds himself back because I cannot always do the things that he wants to do.

:( This post is pretty sad, I hope all of you are healthy.

jtotheudy @ 2008-10-02T14:12:00

2008-10-02T18:53:18Z

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc.)
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.

Opening Credits:
Childhood (2) - Yann Tiersan (My life is a foreign film apparently)

Waking Up:
Ballad of a Fallen Angel - Cowboy Bebop (Uh.. this shit is getting sad.. apparently I am a foreign tragedy)

First Day at School:
Hem of Your Garment - Cake (I don't see how this really applies)

Falling in Love:
Loose Lips - Kimya Dawson (Man my iTunes just doesn't really get this quiz, although this song is pretty cute)

Fight Song:
Rock Your Body - Justin Timberlake (Dance fight!)

Breaking Up:
All By Myself - Celine Dion (Hahahahah! Finally my itunes picks something that actually makes sense. Also, I don't know how this got on my iTunes >.> <.<)

Prom:
The Way You Move - Outkast (Full appropriate, and I think it came out around my prom anyway)

Life is Good:
Popular - Nada Surf (totally inappropriate in every way)

Mental Breakdown:
Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds - The Beatles (I dunno that I'd breakdown to this song)

Driving:
All The Trees Of The Field Will Clap Their Hands - Sufjan Stevens (I would drive to this, but not what I call driving music)

Flashback:
Circle of Life - Lion King (Hahaha it does bring back memories...)

Getting Back Together:
Don't Be Afraid, You Have Just Got Your Eyes Closed - Mum (I think this is the part of the movie where we get back together on really awkward terms, like possibly my father has just died and I needed a shoulder to cry on)

Wedding:
Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely - Backstreet Boys (Uh.. what a shitty wedding song)

Paying the Dues:
Get Away From Me Here, I'm Dying - Belle and Sebastian (Sort of makes sense, I guess)

Night Before War:
Enjoy Your Worries, You May Never Have Them Again - The Books (This is more like the compilation of everything that happened before the war)

Final Battle:
Johnny B. Goode - Chuck Berry (Another dance battle, or possibly a jello fight)

Moment of Triumph:
Thanks For That Killer Game of Crisco Twister - Minus the Bear (I don't really see this fitting)

Death Scene:
Since U Been Gone - Ted Leo (This cover is hilarious! Haha I would die to this)

Funeral Song:
First Breath After Coma - Explosions in the Sky (Seems fairly appropriate)

End Credits:
Fortress - Pinback (This would have made more sense as opening credits, but I'll talk it...)

jtotheudy @ 2008-09-30T13:38:00

2008-09-30T18:54:36Z

Being bored out of my mind leads me to reading my old journals and finding a quiz that I filled out when I was sixteen. I think everyone on my friend's list at the time also did this, and it would be fun to see where people have gotten to now! So fill it out yourself so I can learn more about you people..

:x: name: Judith Ann Sherman
:x: height: 5'8
:x: shoe size: Generally somewhere around 9.5
:x: hair color: Currently black, but I believe my blond is showing.
:x: siblings: Dan!
:x: eyes: Greenish, maybe hazelly, but I have a big brown freckle in the right one.
:x: college: Montgomery College
:x: high school: Drop out
:x: jr.high: Benjamin Banneker
:x: elementary: Greencastle
:x: hometown: Burtonsville, MD
:x: current home: Rockville, MD
:x: favorite places: I actually really enjoy my apartment, it's probably my most visited favorite place.
:x: favorite sodas: I like lemon lime sodas, and orange soda.
:x: game system: PS2 for the games, and Wii for the fun!
:x: favorite game: of all time? That's really tough. Maybe Super Mario 3, Harvest Moon 64, or Pokemon Blue.
:x: favorite food: I'm going to just say pasta because it's so generic that I can't go wrong.
:x: favorite movie: That's so hard! I will stick with Finding Nemo or Ratatouille.
:x: favorite book: I don't think I have one...
:x: favorite pen: Haha. I love all pens.. Lately I've been really into the Uniball Jetstream 1.0 in black.
:x: favorite car: I love the Toyota Yaris in Blue Pearl, the Hatchback version.
:x: favorite realistic car: See above. :)
:x: favorite animals: Horses, Bunnies, Dogs, Cats, all other animals..
:x: water brands: I like it from the tap, possibly through a brita.
:x: favorite burger place: Greg's house!
:x: favorite place to eat: >.> <.< Tara Thai
:x: favorite fancy place: I don't really eat anywhere fancy.
:x: favorite cheesecake: Strawberry!

:x: favorite hobby: My back has been kinda fucked up so I haven't been able to do things I love like riding horses, but I do get to hang out with Van, watch movies, draw, that sort of stuff. It's good too.
:x: favorite friends: This question is fucked up. I love all my friends. Lately I've been talking to Van, Greg, Katie, Dave, Jen and Melly more than other people though. Alex is my favorite person in the entire world, so he gets his own sentence.
:x: favorite bar or club: Mehhh.
:x: favorite vitamins: Flintstones Immunity Boost in Orange or Red! MM!
:x: favorite show: Probably House
:x: favorite news: Station? Channel? I really like to read http://www.fark.com
:x: favorite scenario: ... I didn't understand this question when I was 16 and I still don't.
:x: gold or silver: I like both, but I prefer silver.
:x: favorite dog: Roxie will always be in my heart, but currently I love Moose and Todo the most. :)
:x: cell phone co.: Ugh.
:x: favorite shirt: That really depends on my mood.
:x: favorite sports: Horse back riding! Yay!
:x: favorite alcohol: Vodka, in a shot glass, with an intense juice like cranberry to chase with.
:x: favorite computer: I like Van's little Eee PC.
:x: favorite fruits: Mango, Peaches, Oranges, Bananas, are Avocados a fruit?
:x: favorite song: The medley from The Beatles' Abbey Road.
:x: ketchup or salsa: On what? Eggs are the only thing I can think of where people use both regularly, in which case I say salsa.
:x: favorite milkshake: Peanut Butter Chocolate (Kim style)
:x: steak or lobster: Steak, I don't really eat lobster.
:x: favorite color: Blue.
:x: favorite weather: 68 degrees and slightly windy. The kind of day where you're cold in the shade but warm in the sun.
:x: favorite state: I haven't seen enough to know!

YOU

:x: you have a crush on someone: My fat crushes Van offen.
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else: I really like where I live.
:x: you believe in online dating: I think people should do whatever makes them happy.
:x: others find you attractive: I am a fatty.
:x: you want more piercings: I think I have enough.
:x: you like cleaning: I like how things are after you clean them.
:x: you like roller coasters: Yay! I really like them.
:x: you write in cursive or print: I write in mostly print but the letters get a little cursive-y.
:x: you last talk to: Van, on the phone.
:x: you last thought of: Before this quiz I wondered if Greg was going to come over to help move the TV.
:x: you last showered: 11:30 this morning.
:x: you last cut your nails: A week or so ago, they're getting longish again.
:x: you last did laundry: ALL DAY SUNDAY--- ugh.
:x: you last hugged a tree: I don't usually go around hugging trees, so I don't really remember.
:x: you last watched anime: When I watched Cowboy Bebop with Van. Silly Van.
:x: you last prayed: A few days ago.

FOR OR AGAiNST

:x: long distance relationships: I think people should do whatever makes them happy, but there's a point when it just starts to get silly.
:x: killing people: In most situations I am against this.
:x: teenage smoking: I don't think anyone should smoke cigarettes, for various reasons, but especially because there are better things to smoke in the world, like hookah.
:x: driving drunk: Against, that shit is just stupid.
:x: gay/lesbian relationships: People should do whatever makes them happy.
:x: soap operas: Ugh.
:x: iraq occupation: Now that we're in there, I would like us to be able to get out.

HAVE YOU

:x: ever cried over a girl: Yep, me and Jen had a big fight and I was mean and I cried about it.
:x: ever cried over a boy: Yes.
:x: ever been in a fist fight: Bucket fight!
:x: ever dated a cousin: That's gross as hell.
:x: ever used a gun: Squirt gun!
:x: ever frenched kiss: :-D Yes
:x: ever finished a puzzle: Yep yep
:x: ever got surgery: Back surgery, front surgery, this shit is getting out of hand.
:x: ever got beat up: Van poked me so hard I had a bruise in my side and I cried at Andrew's house.
:x: ever hated someone: It is possible and likely.
:x: ever made a huge mistake: Anyone who says no to this question has lied.
:x: ever tried any drugs: Yes.
:x: ever jogged a mile: At the gym on a treadmill frequently, and I used to jog for realz when I was younger.
:x: ever played w/ someones feelings: Never intentionally.
:x: ever had feelings for someone young: I usually like guys to be older, but I have this crush on Melly...

WHAT

:x: shampoo do you use: Depends on the month, currently it's something by Bedhead.
:x: shoes do you wear: Most frequently these well worn in nasty flip flops.
:x: are you scared of: A long ass list of things that I need to speak with my therapist about.
:x: do you sleep in: A bed, blankets, and nothing else!
:x: did you eat for lunch: Today? I don't think I ate lunch yet.. uh.. Yesterday I had chipotle for lunch, and today I had frosted mini wheats for brunch.
:x: is love: Baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me, no more.
:x: is a player: All I can think of is this thing in Mario Party where it says "Good luck players!" every turn.
:x: is a pimpette: I guess it's a woman who whores out.. men? or other women?

NUMBER

:x: of times I have had my heart broken?: My hearts been broken a bunch, but never to a point of no repair.
:x: of hearts I have broken?: I don't think I've broken any hearts.
:x: of girls I have kissed?: I plead the 5th.
:x: of boys I have kissed?: 4?
:x: of girls you've rejected?: Countless. :)
:x: of times my name has been involved in a drama?: Haha. Fuck this question.
:x: of scars on my body?: Well I'm certainly not going to count.
:x: of things in my past that I regret: Countless :(
:x: of people you fought: verbally, possibly over 30.
:x: of drugs you taken: What? Who keeps track of these thigns?
:x: of accidents you been in: Car accidents? 5, the most recent of which was extremely terrifying.
:x: of people you lead on?: I don't really lead people on so much as I force them to date me against their will.
:x: of people you broke up with?: Zero.

DO YOU THiNK YOU ARE

:x: pretty: Sometimes, I usually feel cute if I feel good about myself.
:x: funny: I think I am god damned hilarious. I was under appreciated before because Skippy always stole my thunder.
:x: hot: I keep my air conditioning on to make sure I'm not.
:x: friendly: Sometimes.
:x: ugly: I frequently feel ugly.
:x: loveable: People love me so I guess it's possible.
:x: caring: I care so..
:x: sweet: I don't think I'm very sweet.
:x: dorky: This is undisputable.
:x: cocky: I am a cocky mutha fucka.
:x: girly: Not in my personality but I get all funny about hair products and stuff..
:x: boyish: I feel manly.
:x: smart: Sometimes.
:x: pimp: I stop to ask myself sometimes.. am I just too pimp?
:x: an angel: Not at all.
:x: a gangsta: I am the least gansta person alive.
:x: god: Not at all.

FAVORiTE

:x: five letter word: This is a weird question, I'll go with pasta.
:x: actor/actress: I really like Harrison Ford.
:x: comedian: I think Demetri Martin is the funniest person.
:x: candy: I like almost all candy.
:x: anime: Cowboy Bebop
:x: cartoon (not anime): I don't really watch cartoons.
:x: cereal: Honey Bunches of Oats or Frosted Mini Wheats.
:x: chewing gum: It hurts my jaw :(
:x: days of the week: Fridays, Saturdays, Sundays.
:x: least fave day: Monday O.o
:x: flower(s): Irises and Orchids :)
:x: jello flavor: Raspberry
:x: special skills/talents: I'm not terribly talented or skilled in any regard.
:x: summer/winter: I like winter more, because I like the cold, but I also really like summer.
:x: trampolines or swimming pools: I like to swim a lot, so I prefer pools. Plus trampolines are really dangerous!

PERSON WHO LAST

:x: slept in your bed: Van. Last night kept saying "Ow" in his sleep because he's beat up from hanging out with Tom.
:x: saw you cry: My Mom
:x: made you cry: My Mom! She's so mean! She keeps telling me really sad stories about marines and stuff and then she cries which makes me cry!
:x: you went to the movies with: Van, we saw Eagle Eye.
:x: yelled at you: Yelled? Huh. God I have no idea, Van doesn't ever yell at me.
:x: sent you an email: Google Groups for Frog and Toad.

HAVE YOU EVER

:x: said "I love you" and meant it?: Yep yep.
:x: gone out in public in your pajamas? I usually wear them as regular pants instead of as pajamas anyway.
:x: kept a secret from everyone?: I think most people keep some secrets.
:x: cried during a movie?: Yep.
:x: planned your week based on the TV Guide?: I planned my weeks in Salisbury around hanging out with people to watch House and Heroes, but it was more for the people than the TV.
:x: been on stage?: Only to build things and Improv.
:x: been to New York?: Frequently to camp in upstate New York and to the city once to see Rent on broadway.
:x: been to California?: No.
:x: been to Florida?: I miss Katie so much!
:x: Hawaii?: No.
:x: China?: No.
:x: Canada?: Yes.
:x: Europe?: No,
:x: what time is it now?: 2:40 pm.
:x: apples or bananas?: Bananas.
:x: blue or red?: Blue
:x: walmart or target?: Depends on what for. Walmart is really far away these days.
:x: spring or fall?: Fall
:x: what are you gonna do after you finish this?: Clean my apartment some more, hope the dishwasher is finished running.
:x: what was the last meal you ate?: Frosted Mini Wheats.
:x: are you bored?: I am more tired than bored.
:x: last noise you heard?: Someone is singing operatically on TV.
:x: last smell you sniffed?: My hair smells delicious.
:x: last time you went out of state/province?: We may have been in West Virginia for Dave and Jen's wedding at some point, but I think it was probably travelling to Florida with Katie.

FRiENDSHiP/LOVE

:x: who was your first peck on the lips?: Oh Dave, you old married bastard.
:x: who was your first french kiss?: Haha! I was the last person Dave kissed before his wifey!
:x: do you believe in love at first sight?: Not at all.
:x: do you want children one day & if so, how many?: I think so, but only one or two.
:x: most important things to you in a friendship are?: Compassion, Trust, Honesty, Communication

RANDOM STUFF

:x: criminal record?: Pleading 5th.
:x: do you speak any other languages?: Van keeps trying to teach me little bits of Vietnamese but to no avail.
:x: name one of your favorite things in your bedroom: Besides Van, I'm going to go with my bed. It is awesome and squishy.
:x: peircings and where?: My ears and my belly button.
:x: thing you dislike about yourself the most?: Being negative all the time, and being fat.
:x: worst feeling in the world?: Not loving yourself.
:x: whom you love: I love all of my friends, my family, Van, and animals.
:x: whom you miss: Alexander Apostolis Kazanas.

YOU

:x: nickname(s): Judy, Jude
:x: initials: JAS
:x: how old do you look?: I'm going to say 21.
:x: how old do you act?: Probably between 19 and 21.
:x: glasses/contacts?: Glasses
:x: braces: No, I have ugly ass teeth though.
:x: do you have any pets?: Just Bunnicula and Nietzsche the Philosophish.
:x: you get embarrassed?: Frequently, especially when Greg points out really embarassing things that I do.
:x: what upsets you? A large amount of things.

FiNiSH THE SENTENCE

:x: i love to... eat eat eat eaples and banenes.
:x: i miss... Alex, the most awesome person in the world.
:x: i wish... I had a horse again.
:x: i hope... I don't fail out of college and work at mcdonalds.
:x: i'm annoyed by... my constant medical maladies.
:x: i get mad when... people aren't considerate of others.
:x: i am... ready to start cleaning again.
:x: i want to be... awesome as an artist, and rich as hell.
:x: i would never... intentionally hurt anyone or anything except creepy bugs and insects.
:x: i am tired of... being in pain.
:x: i will always be... Judy
:x: i smell only when... I don't shower or I forget to put on deoderant.
:x: i only call you when... I have something to say or I miss you.
:x: i think your face looks like... your face!
:x: your mama is so fat... she's got more chins than a Chinese phonebook.
:x: i love it when you... make your angry face because you know it's super cute.
:x: i always wanted to... compete in an endurance race on horseback.
:x: when i hug you i feel... like we'll be friends forever!
:x: when i kiss you i feel... like I hope you're Van.
:x: i want to hit you when you... are Greg.

jtotheudy @ 2008-09-16T12:25:00

2008-09-16T16:33:45Z

I am surprisingly not stressed out lately.

School is going well, though I am only taking three classes this semester. I had originally planned to take five and I could have probably handled the course load had my history teacher not been psychotic and forced our online class to take part in ridiculous discussions online everyday. I dropped that class... and also French 1. The book for French was 280 dollars. Almost the cost of taking the class.

Helllll no.

So currently I'm taking Painting I which is awesome, Enameling II, which is also awesome, and Fundamentals of Acting, which has promise to be awesome.

I have never used paint in a way that didn't involve building sets before. It's pretty exciting to have a whole new medium to play with.

Enameling II is infinitely superior to Enameling I. Knowing what I'm doing and not having to wait on every other person to learn is awesome. We all basically work at our own pace. We are doing a metalsmithing project, but everyone is doing something different and going at their own speed. It's very rare that I get excited to go to class. I'll post pictures of my pieces sometime soon.

Otherwise things just generally seem to be falling into place. I miss people a lot but it's nice to see Van and Greg more.

I've been missing Alex a lot lately too. We keep trying to plan to see each other but stuff bombs a lot. I'll see him soon, since I have his boxers though.

Anyway... off to class!

Schooooool

2008-09-03T13:23:56Z

School starts in 1.5 hours and I am still finalizing my classes.

Grrarr.

Plus I have some crazy stomach virus that is kicking my ass.

jtotheudy @ 2008-08-07T16:05:00

2008-08-07T20:08:48Z

I feel like total crap. I have been sick for almost a week and it blows. My sinuses are full of pressure and I'm ready to sleep for days. I hope I am better by Saturday so that I can comfortably sleep in a bed that is not my own.

Grah! Get out of my sinuses!

jtotheudy @ 2008-07-30T14:27:00

2008-07-30T18:32:51Z

Cape Henlopen is in two and a half weeks. I am super psyched. We will be up in Delaware for an entire week, relaxing at a campsite 15 minutes away from the beach on foot. I am super excited about taking naps on the beach during the day and cooking s'mores by the campfire at night. It's also wonderful to be able to be around the classic Cape Henlopen crew, original, and from last year, as well as some new faces including the loveable yet vegan Cotter, and Eric who I am excited to build sand castles with.

Tents for all!

jtotheudy @ 2008-07-22T16:12:00

2008-07-22T20:36:02Z

I haven't updated this thing in a while with something meaningful and important about my life. I'd like my friends to understand me, so here it goes.

I have been extremely depressed lately.
I think most people in college (or directly after college) go through dealing with trying to find a job that they are happy with, and balancing work, school, and a social life. Most people also go through dealing with friends moving away and things changing in the blink of an eye. It brings me down to think about the beginning of fall semester. For most people this happened at the end of their senior year of high school. I met Dave in what would have been the summer after my junior year of high school (and was the summer after his senior year of high school) and since he, Van, and Greg never moved away and Skippy and Jen visited at least every two weeks I never felt really alone. Then after moving to Salisbury there was always people around. I love people.

Now a herd of the people I love are moving to Towson which is not terribly far, but certainly not call you up to hang out because you live so close to me distance away. Mel goes back to college directly after Cape Henlopen. Katie goes away farther than anyone else. Greg will live around here, but the bastard works so damned much that if I see him it's while he's sleeping - and I'm not a creeper, but he'll fall asleep while you're talking to him. It'll just been hard for it to be me and Van.

I have bi-polar disorder. It's a mood disorder that flings a person from a manic state (impulsive, irritable, insomniac, obsessive and compulsive) to a depressive state (sluggish, lazy, tired, depressed, anti-social). I have been dealing with this disorder for a long time, but recently it's been getting to me more than usual. I am in therapy, but sometimes it just doesn't cut it. It's at the point where I really don't know what exactly to do with myself.

Also: my back is fucked up, again. In December of 2007 they took out the disk that is located between vertebrae L4 and L5, and now the vertebrae between L5 and S1 (the one directly below the first one) is bulging and possibly ruptured. I get an MRI for that soon.

I had to quit my job because of all of this. It is impossible for me to be able to predict what days I will be unable to get out of bed in the morning. Sometimes I wake up extremely early and am unable to go to sleep because I am racked with pain. I do not want surgery again, I do not want to go through two more months of hell to feel better, so that in one year I can have the same pain another time.

I am terrified that (like last year) I will have to leave Cape Henlopen early to go home and sit by myself, because I will be unable to participate in the activities that everyone else will want to do.

Yesterday morning I had exploratory surgery on my uterus to determine the cause of my unfortunately heavy periods and severe cramping. My doctor discovered a large amount of endometriosis on the back and sides of my uterus.

Around 1 in 5 women are affected by endometriosis, but usually they only have one or two spots, mostly on their ovaries. It is significantly more uncommon for it to be in such high quantities and on the back of my uterus. My doctor called me today to talk to me about the possibility that I will not be able to have children in the future. I am numb to the idea, and don't know how to handle this news.

Personally, I feel fragile. I don't want to always be injured. I want to be strong and kick ass. I am ready for the time when I am not waiting for a diagnosis because nothing is wrong with me.

jtotheudy @ 2008-07-07T10:23:00

2008-07-07T20:16:01Z

1. Would you do meth if it was legalized?

A. I feel like this question is stupid because meth is so unlikely to be legalized anytime soon. It's also so terrible for people that there is hardly any controversy surrounding the legalization of meth.

B. No, there is a ton of legal stuff out there that people don't do because there are risk factors that they're not willing to take (bull riding for example). Why would I do something with an even higher percent chance of causing my bodily harm?

2. Abortion: for or against?

A. The world is highly over-populated, orphanages and adoption agencies have a ton to deal with already. Therefore people should use protection and take precaution when having sex if they don't want a child. If precautions are taken and they end up pregnant anyway I don't have a problem with abortion as another option. I would not want myself or anyone to be responsible for bringing a child into this world that would not come out being loved by anyone. The Juno situation does not work for everyone. I don't like the idea of abortions, but I do like sex. I am willing to take the calculated risk of possibly needing an abortion to have sex.

B. People that use abortion as a method of birth control are retarded. I unfortunately cannot think of a way to prevent these people from continuous unborn killing sprees except to preform mandatory hysterectomies after an arbitrary number of abortions. Fortunately abortions can cause damage to the womb, especially with higher frequency (as does the morning after pill). Both can cause inability to become pregnant again permanently. Hopefully the people who are too stupid to use protection will become infertile so as not to genetically impart that idiocy onto future generations.

C. If abortions were to become illegal, certain situations should be excluded.
1. Rape. Women should not be forced to bear a child that could potentially become another rapist (I don't know whether or not 'rapist' is proven or disproven to be passable to a child from a father, but it's something that I know I would worry about as a mother). Giving it up for adoption is fucked up, because you still have to carry the product of a crazy trauma, possibly quit your job, have to pay medical expenses, etc. for something you never planned for, wanted, or made the mistake of not using protection.
2. If there is a possibility the child will be mentally or physically handicapped. It should be the mothers decision if she wants to keep it or not, if she can handle a handicapped child and afford it's medical expenses.
3. If the child or mother WILL die in the birthing of the child. It should be terminated. Childless woman sounds a lot better than motherless child.
4. If during IVF multiple eggs are fertilized. Sextuplets etc. No one wants six kids at once, no one. Try again!
5. If a child becomes pregnant at an age where they are not legally responsible for themselves they should abort. I will delve later in question number 10.

3. There's a 2 month old child and a 65 year old man who has the cure for cancer but hasn't had a chance to announce it yet; one of them has to die... which one?

Some of these controversial questions are retarded. This would never happen, and if it did no one would know it was happening.

If I have to play this game I would kill the kid, it's not really a hard question. If the dude can cure cervical cancer alone he'll save the potential lives of thousands of children in egg format, kill 1 to save 1000?

4. Would our country fall with a woman president?

It would just get an EXTREME MAKEOVER!!!!

In all seriousness who the hell cares what our president looks like, or whether or not they have vaginas, periods, or breasts. Mom always told me that I had to taste something before I wouldn't eat it, so I'd like to hold off on this question until a woman president's maternal instincts cause World War III.

5. Do you believe in the death penalty?

Absolutely. Fuck my tax dollars going to feeding someone who couldn't afford the food I put on their dinner table before they went to jail. I think that there should be an extremely long and lengthy judging process about each individual case and whether or not it is appropriate to issue the death penalty, but that in certain cases it MUST be invoked. Criminals cant take things seriously anymore since they just get to go sit in a cushy jail and eat potatoes or whatever.

6. Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?

"Sure, if people will shut up and stop complaining about it. It really isn't any more harmful than alcohol or cigarettes, which are both legal, so I don't see why it should be." Kelsey has hit the nail on the head.

After many debates about the legalization of marijuana I have come to believe that the main reason that it is not legal is that the government wont be able to tax it, since everyone would just continue to grow in on their own regardless of whether or not it's illegal. Since the majority of charges against marijuana users go to possession, growers wont be punished. How often are the police in your closet checking for plants?

So my solution is to genetically engineer a seed to produce a plant that will not produce seeds. These seeds will be sold to dealers who are legally licensed to sell marijuana, and they wont be able to replant so there will be more control. Plus, then the government can tax the shit out of those seeds and make dolla dolla bills y'all. Places like 7-11 or whatever could still buy pot and sell it to the people who aren't licensed growers.

7. Are you for or against premarital sex?

I don't see why marriage all of a sudden makes a person responsible or not. I know some people who are raised by single mothers/fathers (or come from an unmarried couple who stay together) who are significantly more rounded than people I know who are raised by a married couple. Sex requires responsibility because there are risks, but I don't see what 100 people taking photographs and eating cake while someone wears a 600+ dollar dress has to do with sex.

8. Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?

I think it was George Carlin(?) who said that same sex marriage is the only type of marriage that does not result in babies (and therefore abortion). Since the people who have the biggest problem with same sex marriage are catholics and orthodox Christians, they should be pleased that there is a 100% no abortion rate in same sex marriages.

Anyway I don't see how what a person puts there penis in (or vagina on) effects anyone but themselves and their significant others.

9. Do you think its wrong that so many Hispanics are moving to the USA?

I hate it. Everyone says that they come in and do the jobs we don't want to do, but it's just not true. There are Americans out there perfectly willing to pick up garbage and water lawns. Minimum wage exists to make everyone on an equal playing field from the start so if there are 30 people living in one house meant for 4 people because they only get paid 50 cents an hour it breaks the census. It's important for employers to get an understanding of what people need to live off of in todays society and they cannot do that if there are people willing to take jobs for shit pay.

I'd also like everyone to think back to the last few homeless people they've seen and try to recall someone who is Hispanic and also homeless. It's possible I have seen one, but I don't remember it ever happening. They are all white, black, and American. I have a feeling that if they were offered a job that paid minimum wage, they'd do it regardless. Unfortunately there is someone who doesn't pay taxes doing the job for cheaper already.

10. A 12 year old girl has a baby... should she keep it?

No. 9 months is a long time to miss out on when you're 12 years old, and babies change things. A 12 year old girl having a baby means that the 12 year old is going to be forced to grow up unbelievably fast and will have to avoid a lot of the things that normal teenagers get to do to develop social skills needed for survival in a real world. 12 year olds have no income to speak of and still haven't gone through the process of going to college or buying a car.

The 12 year old should have the baby taken away if it's already born, or aborted if there is still time. She should be placed in some sort of rehabilitation facility or hospital where it'll be determined whether or not she is sane enough to go into society. Who ever heard of 12 year old banging, anyway? That's gross. That's babies having babies.

11. Should the alcohol age be lowered to 18?

This is one of the only things that isn't arbitrary. The brain doesn't stop developing until the age of 23. 18 year olds have gotten their license 1-2 years ago, and are heading off to college for the first time, they're getting jobs and moving away from home. They don't need alcohol to be legal to them on top of all these new responsibilities.

12. Assisted suicide is illegal... do you agree?

I think assisted suicide should be legal on a contract. I think doctors should be allowed to put patients out of their misery in cases where the patient is terminally ill. This contract will remove liability from the doctor who the family may attempt to sue. It's not fair to make someone sleep for 23 hours of the day because they're dying and on terrible pain medication, then be awake and in horrific pain for an hour. To not eat, to not walk. I would want to die too.

13. Do you believe in spanking your children?

I believe that if a child does not have respect for their parent then they will become rebellious when they become an adolescent or teenager. I think it's important for children to know that they are being punished and not abused also. I believe spanking is an appropriate way to punish a child, however, I think it should only be used after the parent has calmed down, as opposed to in anger. I don't think it should be used frequently, but having something bigger as punishment than "I'm very disappointed!" is important.

14. Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?

I'd burn one for less. I can respect a country without respecting a symbol for it that I can buy off the side of the road from an illegal immigrant for 1 dollar.

15. A mother is declared innocent after murdering her 5 children in a temporary insanity case... opinion?

Temporary insanity may cause a person to kill their five children, but there is something very serious in that person's life that needs medical attention in a environment where she cannot do harm to herself or any other children (or people). She should also be required to have a hysterectomy (and be banned from adoption) so she cannot do it again.

16. Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?

I don't actually know that many people read my journal at all, so I am not too afraid. I hope someone has something to say because lively debates are good times!

Mini-rant

2008-06-04T15:39:48Z

Cut because some people just don't want to hear it.
There are few things in the world that I detest more than liars. When I started dating Van I made a promise to him and myself that I would be honest about everything even if I thought my honesty (or saying how I honestly felt about something) would lead to the end of our relationship. He agreed to do the same thing and so far it has worked out extremely well for us.

When you (the general you, not directed to anyone in particular) lie to someone that you love you are hurting them even if you don't know it. You cannot protect a person by lying to them, the truth almost always comes out eventually.

I am flabbergasted at people who think that they are in a healthy relationship that is based on lies. If you have cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend and the reason your relationship is still healthy and happy is because they don't know then you're not in a healthy relationship. Please stop cheating on each other. All of you! If you want so badly to put your penis in someone else or put someone else's penis in you in any way shape or form please take a moment to realize that:

A. Whatever it is that is making you want to cheat is also the reason to step back and evaluate why you are in a relationship that isn't satisfying you. From there you can decide to end it or COME CLEAN to your partner who may or may not choose to leave you, but it's their choice not yours. You have made a mistake.

B. Every single time you sleep with a person and don't tell your partner you are putting them at risk for a multitude of STDs regardless of whether or not you use protection. Sex is not safe these days, in fact that only way to stay safe is to get tested before you TOUCH another persons genitalia with any part of your body OR before they touch themselves and then you. I know, it kills the mood to have that talk in the heat of the moment. Fortunately there is something that kills the mood more: Herpes. Oh and what they don't out and tell you in health class is if you have sex with a person infected with HIV/AIDS even WITH a condom there is still a 15% chance that the virus will be transfered every SINGLE time you have sex with them. That means that if you have sex with an infected person 8 times, on average you will get HIV/AIDS once (which seems like enough!). If you plan on taking that risk you need to be tested every time, and don't forget that STDs usually take about 6 months to show up in blood work so plan for 6 months of waiting between relationships where you or your partner cheats.

And to people who have been cheated on before and are still in a relationship with that partner, I'd like you to know: They have done it once and you forgave them, what makes you think they will not do it again? I believe that there are some situations where (perhaps there is alcohol involved and) a person makes a mistake. One time. I am sick of these relationships where people continuously cheat and their partner forgives them, they will do it again.

I sat back and thought the other day about how many people I know who have been in a relationship where they have not cheated or been cheated on. I can hardly think of any.

jtotheudy @ 2008-04-27T12:41:00

2008-04-27T16:41:49Z

x posted to facebook:

Van and I were already late to get to Frostburg to help Dave and Jen clean out their apartment and build some new storage devices. We had to stop by my parents’ house to pick up the Toyota Highlander and Dave’s desktops that were sitting in my garage. Van loaded the two desks into the back of the car, and my Dad suggested we strap them down. I thought it was unnecessary but he insisted.

So we head off on our journey down 70 (normally we’d take 270, but we were at my Mom’s house). There wasn’t much traffic and it was pretty sunny out. I was in the right lane of traffic. Everyone gets that feeling occasionally that the car next to them is inching too close, and that maybe they want to merge but can’t see that there is a car next to them. There was a car to my left who had inched close but not into my lane so I braked, which would have been fine since a little skidding never hurt anyone, but we hit a patch of grass and with the rain it was crazy slippery so we kept skidding. There was a ditch and some trees that we were heading for, but the curve of the ditch forced us to skid down it towards a concrete drain pipe that was about the height of the car. Avoiding head on collisions can save lives, so I pulled the steering wheel hard to the right so that we were perpendicular with the ditch instead of heading right at it. The motion forced the car to start skidding sideways at the ditch and the concrete drain pipe. All of it was on my side so I was waiting for the impact, but the momentum caused the car to flip completely onto the roof and skid into the drain on Van’s side, and then bounce back off. We were both wearing our seatbelts and Van got out of his alright, but mine was stuck so I had to brace myself to the roof while he unbuckled me. We both crawled out his door which would open, mine was pinned shut from hitting the ground.

Van said later that the desktops that had been strapped into the back were about the same height level as our heads when we were turned upside down. If they hadn’t been they could have flown into our heads and killed us too.

My cell phone had started ringing when we hit the grass, it continued to ring after the accident was over, to give an idea how fast it went. It turns out that Jen was calling to tell me that I was late, and I better have already left. My cell phone dinged with a new message as a bunch of really nice people and Van pulled me out of a ditch. At least 7 people must have stopped to see if we were okay and make sure no one else was in the car. They were very nice and someone called 911.

The ambulance and police officers arrived. They really need to work on better communication. The police were trying to ask me questions while the ambulance people were also trying to ask me questions. I was very disoriented and foggy. Van seemed okay, and doesn’t have insurance, so he didn’t feel like going to the hospital. They checked his blood pressure in the ambulance and then made him sign a form saying he refused treatment. They immediately ushered him out of the ambulance and wouldn’t let him back on. My chest was hurting pretty badly and they took my blood pressure and it was 90 over 50, it’s normally supposed to be like 120 over 90 so they wanted me to go to the hospital. They strapped me down to a board and stuff and the extremely gross ambulance guy sweat profusely and it dropped all over me. It was nasty. They also had to cut off all of my clothing, including my favorite pants and the shirt Skippy gave me that said “Mine are bigger” and had two guys holding snowballs. Everybody gets one.

I got airlifted to the shock trauma hospital in Baltimore and taken inside. They are a teaching hospital so there were about a million people looking at me, and doing tests, ultrasounds, stabbing me with needles in my tiny veins, telling me they have to take blood out of my femoral artery. They did x-rays and ct scans etc. I cracked my sternum which exploded my bra into two pieces upon impact. The hospital staff reminded me that without my seatbelt Van and I would both be dead.

While we were waiting for results of tests I realized that my camera, my iPod, my glasses, my wallet and keys, and my laptop that has ALL of my art history notes (40 single spaced pages!) were still in the car and possibly crushed. Van’s Sansa (mp3 player) and his cell phone were also stuck.

We were released at around 12:30 and went home. Now we’re super sore, but it turns out that the helicopter is paid for by tax dollars and we don’t have to pay for it. Plus my car insurance will pay medical for me and Van so he’s going to get x-rayed today.

The moral of the story is everyone should wear their seatbelt or they might DIE! And also get a car with a roll cage.

Kelsey and other art fags!

2008-04-13T18:37:57Z

It's informative, although I didn't check her sources.

http://maradydd.livejournal.com/374886.html